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nemeruI have, what can only be described as the deepest respect for the character of Draco Malfoy. Despite his faults and his past actions, I believe he is singularly, a character that has a lot of potential for both good and evil. He's bit of an intense character, one I think I'm guilty of putting high up on a pedestal and making just a tad perfect but he is not. But even with his faults, I think he's still somewhat awesome. Now, how do I get Harry to think so as well?
I want to give up on this story. I really, really want to just let it waste away. But in the end, I keep coming back. It has got to be the most slowest going story ever -- only 200 words a day and no longer than a scene that does nothing for the story. I can't seem to not be wordy. That is how I am and somehow I think this is what dooms me as a good writer. I can not seem to write concisely or succinctly. I have so much extra baggage that it bogs down the story and yet I can not write it any other way. I fail as a writer but do I stop writing knowing I will never be able to be satisfied with what I've written? I procrastinate so much... I could be translating something right now, a good use of my time instead of this horribly ambitious story that will in no way stay to only 20,000 words. If I can, then that will be an absolute miracle... Gah, I don't want to work on something like this. It just doesn't feel right. But I want the story known. *sigh*
What do I do? Shall I give up for the day? It's only 5:30 PM after all... I'll probably end up going right back to it. :\
I want to give up on this story. I really, really want to just let it waste away. But in the end, I keep coming back. It has got to be the most slowest going story ever -- only 200 words a day and no longer than a scene that does nothing for the story. I can't seem to not be wordy. That is how I am and somehow I think this is what dooms me as a good writer. I can not seem to write concisely or succinctly. I have so much extra baggage that it bogs down the story and yet I can not write it any other way. I fail as a writer but do I stop writing knowing I will never be able to be satisfied with what I've written? I procrastinate so much... I could be translating something right now, a good use of my time instead of this horribly ambitious story that will in no way stay to only 20,000 words. If I can, then that will be an absolute miracle... Gah, I don't want to work on something like this. It just doesn't feel right. But I want the story known. *sigh*
What do I do? Shall I give up for the day? It's only 5:30 PM after all... I'll probably end up going right back to it. :\
